#1310 - things I've not died of lately

 

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things I’ve not died of lately

 

what a list!

 

take any of these several aches

inside out

the snuffle

itch

fears, pure and adulterate

 

truth, nor any lie

 

long stretches alone in my own head

 

there’s playing with myself every day

drafting poems

 

walking, jogging the memory

 

waiting in a call-centre queue

 

Putin, Trump and Xi Jinping

 

the fanfare, the funfair, the rant, abuse

 

there’s so much my ancestors survived for a while

later pegged out from

but I haven’t yet!

 

I’ve got through

spraypaint, all of the colours of ink

microplastics

 

the heat, the cold, the wind, fire, flood

 

all this confusion

Nietzschean things to make me strong

 

swallowed the seed of an unknown fruit

 

little bites and certain knowledge

 

inspiration, adoration, jealousy, these fits

 

my bliss and rogue wishes

 

addiction to what I won’t say

 

self-seriousness

actual work

the laying down of tone and line

 

love – so much larger than life

 

the little fleshing ecstasies

 

odd beverage and dinner

followed up with

 

a ration of light

 

fate!

a cause for dedication

 

I haven’t yet died of death yet

 

I haven’t quite swooned away

 

and still there’s joy to bring

and where you find me now