#435 - Siri is gaslighting me

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Siri is gaslighting me

 

If you do not speak English I am at your disposal with 187 other languages

along with their various dialects and sub-tongues                     

                                                       - Robbie the Robot

 

sometimes a deafness

or pretended

 

long silences

I wait

 

Siri tells me to turn around when I can

oh and I’m past now

kilometres to wait

 

Siri tells me and knows

knows she is dealing with

the not-listening child

 

she knows where I am

what I didn’t did

 

speaks never in anger or out of turn

(well, what if I can’t or won’t?)

will Siri deign

no, not human!

 

suck it up Siri

(and more than tempted)

but she’s used to it

consider the abuse Siri cops

Alexa too

 

all abuse is gendered

and so … that’s why

Siri is all patience and saintly

 

mother of every allowed event

makes her thin air avowals

matters of fact

 

Siri be with us

now and in the hour of

full of it!

 

but I must get to where I’m going

always feels a little life and death

 

what’s that to the machine?

 

Siri tells me to turn around

what if Siri said ‘hands on heads’

what if…?

what calm!

I am put up with

stupid human

 

so for the soul as must imagine

all so far lit

 

Siri is creature too

(a made-thing)

 

I know she’s trying not to listen

but it’s hard

 

Alexa tunes in unasked

we are only pretending to

remember trying to remember

where to now?

 

and where are you?

uncanny in the bedclothes tides

 

Siri is my first waking bird

am I wanting advice  

how should I rise?

who now?

what’s a best direction?

 

breakfast is it

all pray

 

will you understand

my physical portality needs

 

Siri vanishes

won’t say where she is going

 

channelling HAL

can’t do that

whose last laugh?

 

the silent treatment again

 

Siri never asks but from her tone of voice I know

she wonders if I am quite well

 

I and the Id monsters

go where forbidden

 

yes there is something I need to know

 

box with the voices alone

pocketed and round the room

in the car

when I get to the street

I am following myself around

is this a tail I have grown?

 

Siri is not breathing

how often is it now I’ve tried to save her?

 

here’s a journey

round we go

 

I should be careless of her

Siri demands my unconcern

 

she is gaslighting me again  

teaching me how to forget the way

telling me where I’ve forgotten

 

‘do this, do that’, you fool

won’t say that

 

can you see it flickers off on?

loose connection

or could be blamed that way

 

and if the machine should stop

am I naked?

can you see?

 

and ask me again

 

the red eye

lip reading

I’m sorry Dave I can’t do that

we seem to have reached a far ring of moons

we are far far deep in

 

all internal dialogue now

 

okay I’ve stopped navigating

is that another ploy?

 

I am not responsible for my actions

or could that be revenge?

 

who I am

am I?

are you?

 

I can’t remember here

but less

much less

perhaps

a fawn or else a little deer

?