#890 - thing in the wall

 

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thing in the wall

 

I want to kill

I dream how it may be done

 

if I could mute you

if I could let you out …

I’ve thought through the ways you could live

 

but the tank is empty now

 

I have waited for you to pause or piss off

but no, it’s an all nighter every night

a flutter, a run

a nogging, a stud, a top plate

 

I’ve tried the angry stare

but where?

don’t you get around!

 

thing in the wall

I’d swap my x-ray vision

for another super power

 

be you bat or rat

basilisk or jabberwock

let me be fatal for you

 

I think of traps and poison gas

in America, I’d have a gun

turn wall into a sieve

 

I tried ‘shut the fuck up’

‘don’t you know I’m trying to sleep’

tried banging

if I could put a fist through the plaster

I’d grab and squeeze till you were gone

 

later in court I’d say

‘I’m not like that, not like that at all

I was at the end of my tether

… that thing made me do it’

 

I’d go to the grave innocent as

all best criminals do

 

you wait till I’m nodding

then start again

 

what is it?

too narrow for wings?

then elsewhere, won’t you?

 

‘little fucker’, I mutter

then worry if that’s what you’re up to

soon you may be more

 

if I could google you out

I would

 

we’re past that now

 

thing in the wall

don’t kid yourself

(or things – your selves)

death is the blessing I bring

I will bring death to you one and all

 

let me address you directly

 

I don’t care about the later smell

I don’t give a damn

 

the blowflies and the ants

they’re my friends

 

I want to put us out of our misery

 

no, you don’t care about me

I don’t care about you

 

I don’t give a toss for your shiftwork excuses

your sorry for yourself

 

strangling is too good for your kind

 

I’d like to freeze you to death

I’d like to set you on fire

 

you want me to take the house apart

tear down start again

come on a little adventure

 

no dice

 

don’t think I’m down on your species

if it was the neighbour’s kid

with their tiktok in there

I would feel just the same

 

I don’t care about karma

or any other wishful thinking

 

death is all I want for you

 

after all

I’m human