#478 - my phone died

21.iv.21

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my phone died

 

but I limped on

how, to whom, could I tell?

 

against all odds

cast eye to world

such a sad occasion

met the punters head on

 

few and furtively they saw me

they, the still connected

they of the data yet

 

I was the only one in that whole bent congregation

eyes up to the outer light

 

and worried the music was over

no evidence of any past

 

I admit it

my phone died

I was weary anxious  

kept looking for signs of life

plug fiddle, shake it  

and tempted to toss

 

I went through all of the stages of mourning

denial, despair and on…

no selfie to take in that day

 

I had considered suttee

but the phone had not exploded

…somehow I soldiered on

chin up, alone

what chip?

 

no SIM?

I couldn’t get in anywhere

rumour went round that I didn’t exist

it’s always hard to argue with that

say ‘pinch me’ for proof

but it’s pointless if you lack the ap

 

where was I?

felt the floating

like a dream it was

 

epic memory committed

(would I know the numbers by heart

when time came?)

but all of the voices were gone

the messages, texts, and all hope

‘you were my everything’ I howled

 

it was true

I’d once kept a piano in there  

all of my steps, my pulse

and temperature were told

the clock itself was gone!

 

I found myself in the moment

In the old house

walls and doors

how long since I’d noticed?

an ancient wilderness looked out

and there was an ear worm now

 

Alexis, Siri, Cortana? no peep

where was my harem fled?

 

it was as if the soul were off

there were roses

a waft and I felt breeze to cheek

 

light from all other worlds was lost

… it was just this one to begin with

no news came

every book ever written was out of print now

still there though – dead zeroes, dead ones

 

could I plug myself into

whom would I worship?

I looked up to a hard sun

 

lonely, on a peak in Darien

or is it a far off moon

by magic?

 

one wonders

how, in so short a span

we had come to this –

presence, I believe it was

 

and yes, still was fungible

yes, I could attend the shop

all might be right

 

just need a little time out

just need a little charge